in completing my last blog entry I realized something about myself with the help of my Auntie Ruby as we were talking over life situations and discussing how life had brought me to stay with her for a while to get enough money together to get back to Utah I realized that even though someone offers assistance and wants to help I have found that I still felt guilty just for basically existing this burden I have carried around for heaven knows how long and they are like tacs digging into my spirit and I keep them their instead of removing them. so when it rained last night I gave those tacs of guilt inadequacy and unworthiness to the rain to wash away and buried them in the ground to bury them forever never to return:

I choose...
to live by choice, not by chance;
to make changes, not excuses;
to be motivated, not manipulated;
to be useful, not used;
to excel, not compete.
I choose self-esteem, not self pity.
I choose to listen to my inner voice,
not the random opinion of others.

1 Response
  1. hope Says:

    You rock!! Keep up the hard work and perseverance.